I'm going to Boston in a few days. I have a ton of things to get done before then. So, what did I do today? I took a bunch of clothes out of my closet and put them into a Space Bag. Because that's the sort of thing that I do when I feel overwhelmed. Yes, "in the big picture" it will make things easier for me, but it wasn't something I needed to do today. I also cleaned litterboxes (which DID need to get done) and vacuumed the bedroom (also needed to be done).
It would be a lie to say I'm not nervous. I am scared of the travel part. Which is totally absurd for someone who has been traveling on planes since they were very small, but it's the truth, nonetheless. The last time I was on a plane (I think) was a trip to San Francisco. I hope this trip ends up far better than that one.
I am afraid of crying during some part of the ceremony. And I am petrified about the whole photo part of this whole thing. I hate being photographed with a passion. I don't know what I'm going to do with my hair yet and I don't know what jewelry to wear or not wear and I am wondering if I should go through my jewelry box and see if I can find something nice.
This week is going to fly by. I'm going to have to get what I want to get done around the house done tomorrow (Sunday) because there just really won't be time during the rest of the week. Thursday, I will be busy packing and checking and re-checking lists. And then I will be off to the airport.
Friday is rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Have I mentioned that while I know the Bride and her children, I don't think I know anyone else who will be at the wedding. Yeah, I am a little freaked out. Except there is the saving grace that it is unlikely that I will ever see most of these people again, so if I can create and maintain the illusion of being a nice, normal person until Monday, it's a win. Saturday is wedding. Sunday is brunch and then, in a sort of weird last minute side trip that I feel I need to take, I am going to go on the train down to another part of MA to see my stepsister... who I've not seen in THIRTY years. No, nothing traumatic happened, my stepsisters were all grown and gone by the time our parents married. This will be my first time seeing my stepsister in my adult life. How you cram that much catching up into a small timeframe, I have no idea. And then, at an ungodly hour on Monday morning, I come back home. (Cue more travel anxiety). And then I will probably take a nap. And Tuesday morning, I will once again be back on the bus, headed to work...